Siti, Tanjung, Perak


Alhamdulillah. Syukur sangat-sangat sebab cerpen "Siti, Tanjung, Perak' terpilih untuk Antologi Cerpen Adiwarna Ke-6: Kelip-kelip Kusangkan Api. Tak sangka juga ada rezeki melalui cerpen kali ini sebab sebenarnya agak tak puas hati dengan mutu penulisan yang dihambat kekangan masa. Tapi mungkin sebab "Siti, Tanjung, Perak" cukup syarat dan kena rasanya seperti yang dikehendaki oleh pihak panel penilai. Yang pasti, ada 39 cerpen lagi yang lebih hebat dan menarik, yang terpilih daripada 135 penyertaan keseluruhan. Apabila "Siti, Tanjung, Perak" terpilih, jadi semakin semangat untuk terus menulis lagi. 

Masih menunggu kata putus JS untuk "30 Hari Untuk Melupakan Cinta". Mungkin dalam seminggu dua yang akan datang, dapatlah tahu. Harap-harap ada rezeki juga. Insya-Allah. 

Dalam masa yang sama, masih terus berusaha untuk menyudahkan "Epik Cinta Dari Agia II" yang sudah terlalu lama ditinggalkan. Takkan mudah untuk kembali ke dunia jauh itu. Perjalanannya masih jauh. I am rebuilding it chapter by chapter. I am reconnecting with them, one character at a time. And I will finish it. Insya-Allah. Doakan, ya?

Working title(s)

Alhamdulillah. I managed to finish the final draft of '30 Hari Untuk Melupakan Cinta' and submitted it last month. Earlier this month, I submitted 'Siti, Tanjung, Perak' for JS Adiwarna's short stories anthology. I have just resumed writing the second installment of 'Epik Cinta dari Agia' last night. Most probably I will also be working on a few more story ideas that have been bugging for attention all this while. If one doesn't work out smoothly, I have another to labour my time into.

I just have to keep on writing.

I feel like quitting my current job and focusing on writing at home. But I am also scared that I will instead spend my own sweet time not writing anything at all, just lounging, reading other people's work, binge-watching Netflix, sleeping off my days, overthinking my nights. And who is going to pay the bills?

And will it be worth all the toiling, word after word, sentences, pages, chapters? I guess so. Though I find it very hard to convince myself at that. I don't know.

I guess I just have to keep hitting the keyboard, writing, telling better stories along the way and finding a voice which can truly define who I am. Even then, I don't think I will ever stop.

Some kind of recognition would be nice but I know there are better writers than me. Well, getting published is a recognition indeed. That's already satisfying enough for me.

As long as I write, I am a writer.

Kelip-kelip Kusangka Api, katanya

Tiap-tiap tahun sejak 'Kisah Cinta, Seribu Wajah, 2012', ku tak pernah ketinggalan menulis untuk Antologi Cerpen Adiwarna. Tapi tak setiap tahunlah cerpen yang kutulis layak diterbitkan. Kalau tahun sebelum tu dapat, tahun sudahnya tak tersenarai. Tahun ni tak tahulah ada rezeki ke tak. Idea tu dah ada. Ending la tapinya. Nak mula tu tak tahu punca lagi. Dah tu macam mana? Harap-harap sempatlah siapkan satu cerpen untuk tahun ni. Kalau tak dapat pun, semoga '30 Hari Untuk Melupakan Cinta' berhasil hendaknya.

Anyways. Details for ACA6 #k-kka are as the following: 

Dan bak kata Kak Su, ayuh lumba menulis!


So. Wow. My last post was way back in 2015. Whatever happened all this while? A lot. Life happened. Private, mostly. And now, I'm back. Well, kinda. I've been trying to keep up with the one rule my publisher advised me to do as a writer: Write. Get published. At least one piece every year.

Got 'Cinta Yang Tertangguh' and 'Separuh Nyawa' published as short stories in Antologi Cerpen Adiwarna 'Cinta Pertama' and 'Helo', respectively. Managed to publish 'Romantika Fantasia' in '10'. Currently, I am in the midst of editing the second draft of '30 Hari Untuk Melupakan Cinta', my fourth full-length novel, insya-Allah. Once I finished it, I will have to continue with the second installment of my 'Epik Cinta dari Agia' that has been on hold for almost five years!

So anyways. I think I'm getting my writing groove back. Not that it's as smooth as it was before. But I try to write every day, most nights. I miss writing. I miss reading. I miss having conversations with my characters of what ifs and why don'ts.

Hopefully I can get '30 Hari Untuk Melupakan Cinta' to be published within this year and to finish my epic fantasy for next year. And to write more short stories in between. And to read more books. Insya-Allah.


I'll keep updating as frequent as possible. Till then, cinta itu terlalu.

2015 Reading Challenge

So. I haven't blogged for a while. A long while. Work kept me busy. Laziness kept me, well, lazier. But it's a new year. 2015. I've got to start again, somehow. So I figured, the only way I'm ever going to push myself to commit is to start with a list, or in this case, a challenge. Here comes the 2015 Reading Challenge! Paling-paling pun dapat la 50 entri dalam tahun ni. I've finished a book last week. Will blog about it later. I am reading another for the time being. We'll see how it goes. Insya-Allah.

Tengok la kalau dapat mencelah-celah saya akan tempek beberapa bab daripada my upcoming work yang dah berzaman sangkut - 30 Hari Untuk Melupakan Cinta. Ekekekekek

At 30

March, 7th, 2014,
I'm now 30.
Got engaged at 29.
My first fantasy, after 10 years of writing, was published when I was 28.
Had so much fun at 27.
Got my driving license at 26.
Got my first promotion and first time ever traveling by plane to Sarawak, at 25.
In 2008, at 24, my first novel was published.
Was a bit naughty at 23.
Graduated and got my first job at 22.
Landed my first acting job at 21.
Tried so many new things at 20.
Started my degree in Acting & Directing in USM at 19.
Got accepted to UM at 18.
Got only 6As for SPM at 17.
Broke papa's heart (again) at 16 - I ran away from the boarding school.
Scored 8As for PMR at 15.
Being awkward at 14.
Officially a man (no longer a boy) at 13 - if you know what I mean.
3As and a B for Math for UPSR at 12. Devastated.
I thought I was smart enough at 11.
At 10, I saw something in the sky.
Being all weird, out of place at 9.
Still learning about life at 8.
Got too excited at 7, pooed myself to a life-time embarrassment.
My first heartbreak at 6.
I saw my first ghost at 5.
A whole new world for me at 4.
At 3, I thought I knew everything.
At 2, I thought I was big enough.
At 1, mama and papa are everything to me.
And on that day I was born,
March, 7th, 1984.


Ku dah umoq 30 tahun.

Sekian, harap maklum.